1) We celebrated my birthday with a bottle of *****. She kissed me in front of all her friends because she said she wanted to be my first. Intimacy had never seemed exciting before February 28th.

2) She got so drunk at that house party that when my friend suggested that we kiss, she went for it, even though she told me it was a one time thing. I hoped that maybe the first time wasn't a fluke, and perhaps she felt what was between us, too.

3) She pulled me in and we kissed on the dance floor at prom, even though there were other people around. That night made me feel alive, convincing me I could go anywhere with anyone. She made me feel that way.

Even though every kiss finished with a “this doesn't mean anything, okay?”, I can’t help but wonder; why did she always kiss me first?