I miss her more and more as the sun rises and the moon fades Slowly she creeps in my mind like a plague infecting my brain Eating away all thoughts I have created Only to be consumed by her image A black storm as it rains down my sorrow As my smile only hides the pain within For I will not lay my problems to yours Therefore you will be blind to my suffering And fall victim to illusions I portray in front of you Not knowing if it is wizardry performed by a warlock With a keen knowledge of the dark arts Of who must not be named Or is it all just smoke and mirrors A fake grin as I trick your mind of my felicity state Or lack thereof Invisible as the oxygen we breathe from the trees of nature As I stare out my window to see a palm tree That does not belong in the lonesome desert Only to share its sympathy as I feel I do not belong To a place where love is cynical and mediocre Where love means to be physically bounded I search for a mental connection As I have with a Being greater than me Yet when I look for it I am alone left in my own cataclysm Drowning in the abyss of a decrepit heart Flooded by the gates of grimaced faces As I slowly close my door to my own emotions And embrace a meaningless melancholy to fulfill others' happiness When I connect to one mate who shines as bright as the moon She fades just as such when the physical bond is no more When the dark energy of negativity subsumes the thoughts of serenity Then there I lose her And for me I am left to think about her As the sun sets and the moon shines from the darkness And once again I begin to miss her More and more