Hate how this memory of the past haunts the future of my present. Hate how every look and smile drives my heart insane and decay in despair. If you only you knew what I been feeling. If you only knew I'm still in love with you. Hate how young love never seems to end. We all made mistakes and I made the sacred mistake of all but you know what? Maybe that was my call to wake up. Lost the best girlfriend I ever had. I never cared about *** just making it last but after looking back I saw what I've truly done. Lied to you and cheated. Looked like all I wanted was to take away your flower as you did mine. Cheated on you because I thought you were on me but let's be real, I ****** up as your boyfriend but worst of all i ****** up as your friend. Now every night you always pop in my mind At least once a day just wishing I can get you back and show you what your truly worth. Make things count make things right but I don't deserve it. How can I after what I've done? Still kills me to this day, the biggest regret of my life and now i gotta live with the fact I lost the girls of my dreams  but worst of all I lost you as a friend.just wished it ended as a happily ever after in the last chapter but this is the conclusion that would always be known as the story of my life.