Fact, Even though I met the love of my life and plan on marrying him I dont believe anybody will ever love me
Fact: I dont believe im worth having anything that I want
Fact: I believe that I am a burden on my family becuase I require so much help just to get through the day. I’m not disabled, just crazy.
Fact:I cant be left home alone because when I was 14 I tried to **** myself
Fact: When I was 13 I met a guy that I met online becaues I wanted to get kidnapped and murdered.
Fact:Ive never been ***** but sometimes I wish I had been
Fact: From the time I was 13 to the time I was almost 15 my best friends dad tried to convince me to fall in love with him. He was 50 something. Sometimes I regret not taking him up on his offer.
Fact: I wake up some mornings and all i want is for somebody to beat the **** out of me because I dont want to be alive anymore
Fact: I want to marry you and spend the rest of my life with you, but im afraid that youll realize how ******* up i am and leave me.
Fact: Im so terrified of being alone that I push away the people i love so I can say it was my choice
Fact :I just wish I could be trusted enough to stay home alone for 24 hours. Or get a job. or drive a car. but I know Im not worth the trouble
Fact: I wish my mom knew that when I said “I understand…” I really meant I understand but it doesn’t make it hurt any less.
Fact: i believe I am a worthless human being. I dont deserve to have anything i want and you finally made me believe that I might not be. fact: I cant stand the thought of loosing you.
Fact: I really Really like ***, and all of you guys out there that think you can take advantage of me, believe me, I wont be the one getting hurt.
Fact: I hate the word beautiful when it is used to describe me. Fact:I may have sent the love of my life to prison because he was too old for me
Fact: as I sit and write this out I realized something. these were once my secrets, these 15 one liners that I am different now. Dont get me wrong, I still really like ***, And I still feel worthless sometimes but now, I know something about myself. I know that I matter.
Fact: I know I am ******* Beautiful Fact: I know I mean something Fact: I want to be alive Fact: I am greatful to have lived the life that I have, because I know I could have been born to an abusive father and a hateful mother that sent me to the streets so they could shoot up Fact: Instead of the previous senario I was born to a succesful and loveing mother and a brilliant and caring father. I was born into a family where I will be the 5 generation female to go to college. Fact: I am loved. Fact: I love Fact: I am capable of emotions other than saddness and anger and fear. Fact: I know who I am, as well as a 16 year old can.