I stood there

And swallowed my pride like a pill

Which was more like a heavy lump

Slowly sliding down my throat

With a fake smile plastered on my face to hide my discomfort

I stared at you as you uttered the words I never wanted to hear

“I think we’re better off as friends”

I wanted to laugh in disbelief

But I was frozen with shock

As I realized

My day dreams of you are now pointless

And the hope for something more I once had

Has no basis because you took the possibility away

I refused to let you know that I was hurt

Because I didn’t want to be vulnerable in front of you

Anymore

You don’t deserve that from me, I thought

I can’t keep baring myself to you

It isn’t fair to me

Because you run away every time I try to open you up

Even though you should know by now

That I wouldn’t hurt you

But I can’t force you to try or to trust me

So I’ll just take a breath for now and let it be

~S.C.A.