If only I knew the price I'd pay Living the same cycle day by day The blood in my veins would soon run cold The spark in my heart would abandon my soul The comfort of my skin would wear away The color of my city would turn to gray The blood in my head would drain from my nose Spending dime after dime left me out in the cold If only I knew that I just had to try Doses became higher And so did I Till I finally screamed, threw myself on the floor I punched I kicked Couldn't take it anymore Dose after dose I couldn't see from my eyes I laid on my back and looked up at the sky If only I knew it was all part of the ride Just a bunch of ****** up kids With bloodshot eyes Chasing our drinks instead of the sun Only God knows the battle I've won.