when i first met you i was scared of your warm skin that touched my frozen hands. your voice melted into my ears, and make your "hey" sounded so beautiful in every way.
we talked about everything since then. i still remember how your voice sang about her. your voice were screaming into my ears hoping, begging me to help you. "I want her to stay" you said. "I want you to stay" i whispered.
odd. i never actually told you how much i wanted you to stay. how much it hurts me to listen to your songs.
today, i told you the truth "but i don't care.. i still love you" i said i don't. because you told me that you will always love her and that you'll hate yourself for that.
"I understand" i said. "I hate you" I don't.
this is pretty complicated for me to write this. i love you, i do, i do. i think.