all i want to do is fall into your eyes to drown and wash myself of the things i have been living in these past four months to dive into the golden chocolate lake of your understanding because you are the only one who knows me so well to open my mouth and eyes and ears and be purged of every bitterness lodged there.
all i want to do is sit quietly and watch you paint there is no need for conversation to fill an awkward silence it is only a beautiful silence filled with our warm and lovely thoughts.
all i want to do is lie in the darkness and hear your voice to laugh loudly and cry quietly our voices growing fainter and more slurred as the indigo night slips by.
you are so far away and the last time i saw you all i could carry was pain in my heart the hurt of too many misunderstandings and the sorrow of my losses but have i lost your love? no. because i think you are the only person in the world who understands me, who actually hears what I say.
i never thought this was possible. i’ve read thousands of books, and some of them spoke of this thing, but i never thought it was actually real. but here you are, there you are, so far away but always close because we are close in our hearts and in our minds you can travel so far away i cannot hear your voice but we are forever this close and i don’t care if it’s weird or unusual or sweet and adorable it is only the most important thing in the world to me.
i wrote this for a very important person in my life