Every since I was born every since my first christmas My first birthday my experience from school My first love and hate my life was forever tainted
I look at the mirror to view my skin the lightest of all brown I cry in misery and helplessness I try to scratch the skin out of my bones but it wouldn’t go I look at my last name and shiver I look at Santa Claus and wonder I look at the people around me and I become lost
I dream of them coming with their ugly wrinkled faces and their barbaric ways and ****** the little girls from their innocence the ones that are my great great grandmothers laughing and instilling the idea that they were going to be theirs forever and till this day they are
I look at T.V to see how they portrayed my sisters skinny and shaky poor and sad but who have stolen from them? The T.V? The world inside the T.V? Or my world?
But I viewed the true place of origin So tropical,fresh, and healthy civilized and intellectual dark and beautiful but this only sadden me more
I feel like throwing up To regurgitate all my hatred from this wretched place and when I look for my skin for answers I simply give up
I’m trap In this delusional world Full of people who are lost who lost their homes and their skin and life tainted Till death do us part