Sitting on the floor of my apartment Eating peanut butter from the jar with My fingers, I don’t want to ***** a spoon. Surrounded by boxes filled with Belongings that don’t feel like mine.
On my way home, boxes packed into My mother’s car. I would have driven Myself but two months prior fate Pushed my pretty red car off the Road with a U.S. mail truck. *****.
Unload the boxes in a room that Looks like a memorial to childhood. The memory of summers past are What I cling to now, for the next three Months feel like someone else’s time.
Look for a job. Look for a car. Look for signs that he moved on. Look for an excuse not to and Go to the beach by myself instead. Look for a place for storing boxes.
I should unpack. Boxes arrogant And weighted to compartmentalize All the expectations I would rather not Remember and disappointment I am tired of looking at.