So I went to bed for once devoid
of such a shroud of fear
My shield of intoxication
a begging web beneath my pillow
A coaxing wish within my ears

And so I went to bed for once
with merely the hint of a fear
Though listening out for 'others'
,I had still that much to bear,
I always fear what might be here.

Yet once I found myself asleep
I could not keep my mind from ******
As my brains membrane was tugged
out, I soaked again
in the shout of
dark nights fear
I wished again
to have someone here
But
I dreamt them too near
I dreamt them too near

I had a dream within a dream
that night
and I stole each blow awake
I woke up twice that night
and allowed myself to shake.
No molecule wished to try
again to fall
but
I forced it.
I felt worse for it.

A Scream
A spider
I tried to hide her
I hid
I slid
I'd shout
But I wouldn't let me out

For when I awoke I was
dreaming
and of my own world I laughed
grieving

And when my eyes opened
My cheeks lay laced
with fearful
tears.