We walk around and around and I don't think we'll ever stop
Because if I were to pause for just one second
I might fall apart
and you'd see the pieces sliding off my face fingertips falling away to bone my muscles frantically screaming, trying to move but the deed would be done and I'd just be your mess on this stranger's sidewalk. the face you watched grow in your likeness now unrecognizable the mess left behind after New Year's Eve the minute after midnight when everyone is still too busy cheering to notice but you'll see it because you raised me and now I'm falling and you can't save me you can't save me anymore. And you won't even want to try.
I am your baby girl, not a disgrace not a failure that you can't even claim as your own Mommy, can I come home? Curl up in your chest next to the family I've gotten to know so well, made a home in your rib cage that I can't ever quite leave. are you even aching now that I'm gone or was my space that easy to fill? because I'm sitting here broken and empty and her arms are around me and it's a sad excuse for a hug but it's all I have because you left me out you cut me off and it's cold out here. Mommy, can I come home?