today i was hidden behind change behind little things like nail polish and a hair cut (everyone says the hair cut is a big thing) but tomorrow what can i hide behind besides lies and a china doll grin and sunglasses to hide when my eyes get watery from feeling too much and i can hide behind my bangs and my hands but i am still there and i can still be found i can hide in the ceiling because someone in it cares for me but i am hidden behind a wall of demons of sins who keep people out of my heart and soul and mind oh my mind if anyone found the true thoughts in my mind they would send me away again and i would no longer be hidden i would be in white not in the darkness i call home and all the time people would stare at me and poke and **** and pull and push like that man who hides himself in a stuffy room in nightmare ville that place that smelt like the ocean when it rains and blood and sweat and insecurity and sounded like sniffles and muffled shouts and screams but only i heard those and it tasted like sadness and fear and electricity and it felt like a blanket a wet blanket that suffocated me they'll poke and **** and push and pull me like the man who hides there did if i come out of hiding so i wont. i will stay hidden i am hidden except for now. now i am showing, but now i am leaving.