cross my heart, hope to die forgive me God, but I tried to see through this heavy mist to make of what has come of this I attempted to stay stong, I attempted to carry on, but I can't live a lie I can't let this pain, just pass by.
question in their eyes; one reason in their heart because if word gets around, they could be a part. no compassion in their words how we live: a bit absurd.
they look at me, boy it's hard to breath tears have become my oxygen there's no way I am keeping them in my situation: out of their reach something they'd only see on a movie screen my life: a reality tv show my life: so far below.
walk the halls like I walk the city streets look straight; pace: like there's a clock to beat focus ahead, so I don't break down funny how people haven't seen me around when I need some light, all hope fails and they blank me out; loneliness will always prevail
a broken heart, a broken dream a broken girl, torn at the seams body, in motion head, high off commotion focus ungained not worth the strain my world is on fire and I can't get any higher to watch it all in flames I'm to caught up in my own vain.
January 9, 2010 words from a very difficult time in my life