Apr 2014
I.
Witness your family
stop loving
each other.
II.
Understand what people mean
when they say
the world is not fair.
III.
Be struck with
the realization that
you are not special.
IV.
Hurt yourself.
Don't tell
anyone.
V.
Let strangers
see parts of you
your friends never have.
VI.
Decide that being deep
is more important
than being happy.
VII.
Cut all your hair off
without asking
your parents.
VIII.
Let your ex
boyfriend see
all your scars.
IX.
Go to counseling.
Do not cry.
Not here.
X.
Stop
hurting
yourself.
XI.
Feel empty.
Try not
to cry.
XII.
Let yourself
be defined by the
honesty of numbers.
XIII.
Do not
fill your emptiness
with calories.
XIV.
Pour out your
heart, soul,
dinner.
XV.
Restrict yourself.
Minimize.
Shrink.
XVI.**
Finally
have
control.
Witness your family
stop loving
each other.
II.
Understand what people mean
when they say
the world is not fair.
III.
Be struck with
the realization that
you are not special.
IV.
Hurt yourself.
Don't tell
anyone.
V.
Let strangers
see parts of you
your friends never have.
VI.
Decide that being deep
is more important
than being happy.
VII.
Cut all your hair off
without asking
your parents.
VIII.
Let your ex
boyfriend see
all your scars.
IX.
Go to counseling.
Do not cry.
Not here.
X.
Stop
hurting
yourself.
XI.
Feel empty.
Try not
to cry.
XII.
Let yourself
be defined by the
honesty of numbers.
XIII.
Do not
fill your emptiness
with calories.
XIV.
Pour out your
heart, soul,
dinner.
XV.
Restrict yourself.
Minimize.
Shrink.
XVI.**
Finally
have
control.
I'm only doing this because I want to feel less helpless.
