Words ran dry
I have nothing else to say to her
My safe harbor, heart and soul
I can only wish that she sees me again
Like the way she first did
In the train, while I was reading her favorite book
She was a mess
A lot of things needed figuring out
I was someone she thought she was finally sure of
Someone she can hold on to
It pained me to see her struggling to say my name
Not without spitting out regrets
I didn't even try
She gave up eventually
She stood there, trying to ease the pain I caused her
It is silly how words can get you something
Someone you've dreamt of
And how words can take her away from you
Take your whole world with her, too
"I don't know what to say," I said
She let out a sigh
"Mm-hm."
On the brink of screaming my lungs out
To let her know what I've been through
I lost myself for a little while
All those times, I thought:
"It's all going to be worth it."
She stared at my hands,
"I'm not the one for you."
I coughed, all the rusting pain inside me finally easing out
I picked up all her shattered pieces
Found her utterly intoxicating
She killed every part of me when she said,
"I have to go."
I lost her.