11/23/2013

my night consisted
of silent thoughts
of you

the concert was bright,
full of sad faces,
and drunk patrons.

but for some reason,
I couldn't tear
my mind away
from you.

I saw you
on the stage

I saw you
next to me

I saw you
as the girl
in the front row,
waving her hands,
and singing along

I saw you
in everything
around me

in the walls,
in the lights,
in the beer
under my shoes,
in the smoke
throughout the auditorium,
in the smells
of *** from
a few rows ahead,
in my head,
in myself

I can not help
but think of you
every time I breathe

every time I
even open my eyes

every moment
of every evening,
spent alone,
wishing I had someone

no matter if I
ever get to have
you,
or if I spend
my whole life
wanting* you,
I will always
have a piece of you,
inside my head

I will always
think of you
when the leaves
start to fall off
the tress

and when I’m standing
on the beach,
and the water
rushes towards my toes

and when I’m
laying in bed
every night

it will always
be you

© 2013 Scarlet Van Allen