I'm staring at the mirror
But I do not know this face
And I've got things to do
I have people on my back
Maybe another day I can come
And clean this glass
A mantra sang each new week
But never becomes real
Holding others needs
There's not much time left to feel
And maybe I don't want to
For that is when I'll crumble
The girl was raised on lightning
But the woman is now rubble
To be a casualty
In your own **** indecision
This is not the life at 13
I had envisioned
I hold a hand of uno
Not knowing this game was poker
I play all my best cards
And still I am the tables joker
I expected it to click
I thought I'd find my way
I dance around on quicksand
Mistaking it for clay
All that ever happens when I reach
Out for a hand
Is the drowning of another
I'm the siren of this land
I just wanted company
Misery knows best
I'm aiming to be happy
Yet I turn it all to mess
So I'll run the ******* vacuum
I'll wipe another spill
And I'll try again tomorrow
My head won't always be this ill