and only now the sun arises, he'd been hiding all day, raising his head towards you ''are you happy now?'' he asks. and you question yourself and your two steps forward, three steps back lifestyle. Are you happy now? or were you then? repeating mistakes, time and again, feet placed on the unsteady stone, feel it rock beneath your weight, and wonder to yourself how cold the water will be. Colder than it looks. for sure. There had been an awful lot of waiting around, and about. And isn't it sad that out stretched hands cannot be trusted to be there when you fall off your unsteady rock, your high horse, your higher hopes. "Hello sun." you say, "nice to see you." you say, "I'm not sure I know the answer just yet." the sun closes his eyes and nods. "I have seen your kind before." he says.