In wellie boots I wade through the years. Tears of denial seep through and splash into the top of these wellie boots dragging me down one by one.
Sticky in your grasp I cling wishing that mud could turn to stone. trudging through the realization that it never was and never would be.
With each step these wellies begin to separate. They fall off and sink. They’ve drowned. I’ve waded into quicksand.
I laugh at the belief that these wellies would be enough protection from a much larger situation. I’m laughing as I am slowly sinking at least I’m not drowning unaware that you would watch me suffocating.
Tears meet the years old tears dried at my feet delusion meets grief. Now at shoulder depth I am laughing. As I prepare to take my last breath I am laughing.
I get pulled out while still laughing. By someone who isn’t you. and I see my wellie boots in the distance dead and floating.