I've never felt the comfort of being comfortable enough to be me ... Do you know what that's like? ... Like floating dead center of the deepest sea ... And trying to ride a mangled bike ... Like climbing to the weakest part of the tallest tree ... Then stepping out to start the hike ... I can't locate the key to unlock any different reality ... Try as I might ... So I struggle significantly to just be the Jeremy others want to see ... When I don't even know if that Jeremy is someone I like