I try to find little bits of you in my heart And no matter how hard I search my ocean depths For one shining ray of yours I only find bits of moonlight. Like a puzzle missing a piece A part of my perception of you is gone I cannot leave No matter how sad you make me Because my heart remembers How you'd made me the happiest I'd been I thought the love was special But I was standing in the queue All the others you had been giving love to Were hidden by walls only you could see I feel as if my body is being ripped apart Heart and mind on opposing sides My body is so numb now My body is dragging along, like a zombie Like a puppet, pulled by your strings Like a heart through the ocean. I don't even know what I was thinking Disappointed in you and myself The person I loved the most The person I admired most in my life Has turned a red, beating heart Into one full of rife