Aug 8
I was Knocked out cold in ICU
For 20 Hours apparently
Of that I have NO memories
However when I started to come to
I heard the Ding Ding Ding of a particular sound
The sound of a Heart Monitor in the background
And I felt as if I was travelling on a slow train
On a Course of gentle ups and downs
Turns out I was on a fancy Hospital Air Bed
That was starting to deflate under my weight
For I had blown up like a Michelin Man Balloon
You know Elephant size in a small room
Most importantly the main thought streaming my Head
Was that I had actually returned from Death
I really had something I needed to say
And asked for Pen and Paper straight away
In this crazy moment
Without Glasses on I could not clearly see
What was right in front of me
I had an idea what would occur
Beyond the Blur
The mission overwhelmingly clear
To document a flurry of words
That were erupting in my mind
Let's just say it soon became a frantic mess and time drew close to digress from all my witnessed scribble dribble
To be heard with a revelation of my so-called life changing words
It was chaotic with Family, Doctors and Nurses gathering around
I even called out to the Wardie too
As I sat upright in bed and said
I have something important to tell you
Firstly I shouted out that I needed a swear jar
You know something to toss a coin in, maybe quite a few
Then I felt in overdrive when I exclaimed there's nothing there
There's nothing F'Ning there
Off the top of my Head
No F'Ning Afterlife I meant
The Lights go out and there is no one Home Kind of Zone
I didn't get much of a chance to Banter on
Before a Nurse kindly Shhhhhhhh'd me
And suggested later when we were alone she would
explain all I needed to know
Being so disturbed I was quickly made to realize that Doctors had saved my life when they knocked me out medically
So apologetically I cried out to everyone in the room that
I didn't do a Led Zeppelin - Pink Floyd - see the Dark Side of the Moon
For I sincerely hoped in the moment I had not stumbled anyone's world view - beliefs and values
I had just been on some kind of trip
Versed in Metaphors and Analogy
Induced by something pretty strong to remembering specific Songs
The upshot is I actually do care that I have not been there
And I am Grateful that I 've had the opportunity
To resolve a Mystery!
(c) Debra Lea Ryan
10-July-2024
& Feb 21st - 23rd, 2021
☀♥ƸӜƷ✿♬
For 20 Hours apparently
Of that I have NO memories
However when I started to come to
I heard the Ding Ding Ding of a particular sound
The sound of a Heart Monitor in the background
And I felt as if I was travelling on a slow train
On a Course of gentle ups and downs
Turns out I was on a fancy Hospital Air Bed
That was starting to deflate under my weight
For I had blown up like a Michelin Man Balloon
You know Elephant size in a small room
Most importantly the main thought streaming my Head
Was that I had actually returned from Death
I really had something I needed to say
And asked for Pen and Paper straight away
In this crazy moment
Without Glasses on I could not clearly see
What was right in front of me
I had an idea what would occur
Beyond the Blur
The mission overwhelmingly clear
To document a flurry of words
That were erupting in my mind
Let's just say it soon became a frantic mess and time drew close to digress from all my witnessed scribble dribble
To be heard with a revelation of my so-called life changing words
It was chaotic with Family, Doctors and Nurses gathering around
I even called out to the Wardie too
As I sat upright in bed and said
I have something important to tell you
Firstly I shouted out that I needed a swear jar
You know something to toss a coin in, maybe quite a few
Then I felt in overdrive when I exclaimed there's nothing there
There's nothing F'Ning there
Off the top of my Head
No F'Ning Afterlife I meant
The Lights go out and there is no one Home Kind of Zone
I didn't get much of a chance to Banter on
Before a Nurse kindly Shhhhhhhh'd me
And suggested later when we were alone she would
explain all I needed to know
Being so disturbed I was quickly made to realize that Doctors had saved my life when they knocked me out medically
So apologetically I cried out to everyone in the room that
I didn't do a Led Zeppelin - Pink Floyd - see the Dark Side of the Moon
For I sincerely hoped in the moment I had not stumbled anyone's world view - beliefs and values
I had just been on some kind of trip
Versed in Metaphors and Analogy
Induced by something pretty strong to remembering specific Songs
The upshot is I actually do care that I have not been there
And I am Grateful that I 've had the opportunity
To resolve a Mystery!
(c) Debra Lea Ryan
10-July-2024
& Feb 21st - 23rd, 2021
☀♥ƸӜƷ✿♬
This piece I guess needs more work. I just really wanted to write in this Moment (well I flowed and worked the words over a few Days) . This experience was Hell on Earth at the Time. The Healing Humor kicked in for me eventually. Maybe I need to write a song called ICU Blues - Bed Pans and Tubes!
