Being vapid. Doing things stupid. Running around without a care, despite the scare, still with a lot of things to spare.
And yet also on this very bed, every night, over naught, agonising... Knowing I could never do nothing, of the future to come, powerless, yet, all at once, fearless.
All in all, it was... confusing,... Yet now,... old and wrinkly,... reminiscing.