kissing girls: she makes me feel so alive -- but i miss her funeral anyways sleeping on my mountain of burning gold and empty graves.
leaving leftover tea out in the car as it rots and turns to lukewarm longing.
kissing anyone i'll never learn how to breathe fire.
i'm nocturnal but my eyes refuse to adjust to the dark.
so i whisper poetry into the silhouettes of whoever will have me.
i cry to myself cradling my skull in ***** claws that rip and tear at everything i try to hold.
sleeping in an empty bed, i want to hold her hand again.
i crawl out from a ****** of pine trees belly-deep in the tall-grass where no one dares to wander mistaking my echoing cries a painful roaring sob that reaches out for the stars -- they think me furious but i am only alone.
someone liked a poem under the same title that i published in 2017. i actually hate that poem and it makes me cringe so i rewrote it. it's not really about the same thing anymore. just about what haunts me. and how i feel too big. like it all knocks over around me, but my limbs are too long and lanky and i can't help it. like a dragon who can't see in the dark and cries viciously and wants their only love back.