Oct 2021
Heart stopped
Wish it would
Mind trapped
Wish I could
Escape
From my head
Eyes swell
From the tears
Feels like
It's been years
That I've
Felt this fear
Waves crash
Over me
Whiplash
I can't scream
Drowning
In a dream
Fog, mist
In my head
Can't get
Out of bed
Wrists they're
Turning red
Losing
Hope for me
Getting
Lost at sea
Lost in-
Side of me
Broken
In my soul
Feels like
Broken bones
Slipping
Can't let go
Hiding
In myself
Can't trust
Someone else
Anger
Like a pulse
Curled up
Bottom side
A pit
Deep inside
Wish that
I would die
Wish it would
Mind trapped
Wish I could
Escape
From my head
Eyes swell
From the tears
Feels like
It's been years
That I've
Felt this fear
Waves crash
Over me
Whiplash
I can't scream
Drowning
In a dream
Fog, mist
In my head
Can't get
Out of bed
Wrists they're
Turning red
Losing
Hope for me
Getting
Lost at sea
Lost in-
Side of me
Broken
In my soul
Feels like
Broken bones
Slipping
Can't let go
Hiding
In myself
Can't trust
Someone else
Anger
Like a pulse
Curled up
Bottom side
A pit
Deep inside
Wish that
I would die
Two weeks ago I got the news that my grandpa is dying. The next day I got into a car crash, later that week someone broke up with me, and I just got the news that two of my pastors have resigned their Commission. I just feel sad and broken and I want to die and it feels like no one nowhere on any planet or existence can help me. Please, God make me a stone.
