You Should Have Believed!

My ears ring with frequencies when you speak my name.

I know you are a gamer as well, and you been great at this game.

Studying my work. Wondering if it's about you. Eye for an eye and even the blind can see, You wouldn't even give up a tooth.

Covering up your flaws, concealing worries hiding behind old ways and phases of "youth".

Trying to decipher the lie, between fiction and reality. Trying to undercover "The Truth". Every chance and promise offered went invain. I watched it all go down the drain!

No options left, but he's always the one to blame. I am not chasing clout or fame.

So how is this your problem? I got a lot on my brain. I can't afford therapy, I'm trying to hide the pain. Restless nights left me, crying in the rain. Did things out of good and bad. I was doing what I have to! In order to maintain! If I could go back to past, I would do a lot things differently but still remain the same!

I am just holdin

All on my own

Trying to protect my prince and his throne.

Forgive me Gods, if my rights led me wrong!

We all been forgotten, used, abused and foresaken!

We live amongst killers, instigators, manipulators and rapists!

I been all for my peace.

Never been down for the hatred. It doesn't matter how you take it!

Some of yall stick around, hoping a brother of another color, never make it!

In 2020 never have I ever, had to Fake FLEX **** All of you in your feelings, throwing mixed signals, while getting encrypted in your own codes, ha! Playin' like we're not living in a Matrix!

Grow tired of living, in a world of "Lies".

Hoping you would give me some peace of mind.

**** a piece of ***** or piece of ***

You never saw the signs, or knew what they define. I been lost in a bind. Torn away from all that was mine. Suicide sounds fine. They always say,

"Yo Descovia, you gotta chill with your FEELINGS at times!

But unlike YOU. MY feelings be pushing me to GRIND!"

**** everything you gotta say.

You stress me to

Say what you mean

While you over here hating

I am still living my dreams

It doesn't even matter