And suddenly you see it as you hit rock bottom, as you break down into the smallest, sharpest pieces, and your existence screams at an empty room to be saved to stay to live. No echoes in the dark. You see the incredible life that is waiting for you; that was always waiting for you past the veil of your despair your vices your masochistic self centered suicidal disposition. You choose to be greater than your fear, and freedom ensues.