Mar 2021
finally, i cried my heart out
i cried all of my fear,
the fear of being a failure,
the fear of being left by others,
the fear of not having anyone beside me,
the fear of not surviving this battle,
i finally cried after all this time i buried them deep enough.
thank you, myself,
you’re brave enough to cry again,
to let yourself cry
to accept that being weak is sometimes okay
after this, wake up, and focus
college is about to start again in three days
stop thinking about anything that stop you from growing,
and,
please be happy,
and sad sometimes,
that’s life.
i cried all of my fear,
the fear of being a failure,
the fear of being left by others,
the fear of not having anyone beside me,
the fear of not surviving this battle,
i finally cried after all this time i buried them deep enough.
thank you, myself,
you’re brave enough to cry again,
to let yourself cry
to accept that being weak is sometimes okay
after this, wake up, and focus
college is about to start again in three days
stop thinking about anything that stop you from growing,
and,
please be happy,
and sad sometimes,
that’s life.
i, sometimes, didn’t let myself cry because crying is one of the most things i hate. when i cry, i look weak, i feel weak, i feel stupid. and yes, i never wanted to tell anyone about how i feel since someone decided to throw all of my story back at me again. so i keep them just for myself. and on feb 12th, i told my friends. they’re not the closest ones, but we have something in common. i just feel i can trust them. so while i typed everything i feel, i cried. i feel.... good by crying. and this poem is for me. i dedicated this poem for me, and maybe for everyone who have the same feeling as me. just... cry it out. thank you!
