Up… Up… UP. Down… down… down… My mind is a storm. Chaos. An ocean of thoughts. Ideas. Aspirations. Confusion. Despair. Isolation. How long must I suffer?
Surrounded yet alone.
But then I’m not. Up, up, up I float. I walk on clouds. Mountain tops. I cling to this feeling. How long will it last? I, naively, hope forever. I float in peaceful rivers. I lift my eyes to the Heavens, and burst with thankfulness. I’m okay I’m not alone. I am at peace and enveloped by everlasting love. Though I crash, abruptly. I fall and fall and fall. I crack. But I heal. I endure, keep trudging. The confusion and lies of Satan don’t pin me down. Not anymore. You are with me, forever. You wait for me. Love me. Hold me. Walk beside me. I am a warrior. Survivor. Stronger than ever. I can’t do it alone. This life, this rollercoaster of a mind. I can’t trust myself, I put myself in Your Hands. I trust You. I cling to you, with all that I am. For You are good, and You provide. I repent. I am renewed. Peace ever flowing, Love everlasting. My Love. My Father. My Savior. Thank You. I am not a disappointment, or crazy, or demon possessed. Your Holy Spirit remains. You love through me. You were intentional in my creation. I am Yours. Forever and always. Amen.