It’s not what you think It’s what I made you to believe in I censor it Paranoia pulling deep ends My words are bruised Coming straight from heart of warrior Losing a truce Counting days when we were merrier I see them staring deep, Fishing my answers and my secrets It’s like I am, an open book easy to tear which Can be thrown away whenever you would want to Hold it sternly, it has stories of scars with faint blues I yell at my heart with all strength that I’ve left To speak up against insecurities and deep anxiousness Someone will hold your hand only if you put it forward And leave you too, If its fed with fake jolly smiles and pictures I’ll tell you this truth, If I’m ever being honest. But that’s the thing.... I’m never being honest.
This poetry comes straight from a mind filled with insecurities and fears of saying something that she might regret later. A poem; written by a midnight overthinker, who sees herself as a person who cannot express with right words when she speaks but can pour her heart when she writes....