You don’t wanna leave

What might your family think?
Your friends?
Teachers?
Lovers?
But they don’t know how it is
How hard it is to wake up
Knowing today won’t be better
feeling life fill your stomach with bricks
your head
with poison
They will never know what it’s like to have the taste
of metal in their mouth
Their tears dripping down their face
But not hitting the floor
How close they are
To pulling that trigger

You don’t wanna leave

You just want the pain
To leave
And it will
So instead of holding the metal
Hold your sibling’s hand
Your friends
Teachers
Lovers
They may not know the pain you feel
But you will know
That they will experience it
If you relieve yours

Fight
Take a breath
And know that tomorrow will be better than the last
And that you will make it through