as i walked past our old apartment on another cold Saturday every time I walked this path home from work came flooding back at once and i so desperately wished i could run past the train tracks through our complex and up the stairs back to the first experience i had living on my own so that maybe i could go back in time four years and not repeat the disgusting mistakes of my young adulthood
this time, I caught myself before the painful longing consumed me. i have the same chances now that I did then.
new home. new best friend. new job.
i could easily fall back in patterns and make the same poor choices. or, now bear with me here. i could do everything right.