There is agony in the way of my love
Affection is still there
But since you left me broken
I am afraid to share

The pain beneath my blank expression
Is kept hidden by composure
But every second spent talking to you
Herds me closer to exposure

I place my doubts into your hands
Willing to take them or not
That's the extra baggage that comes with
When you ask for a second shot

As I face my biggest fears
I'm forced to stand alone
Strength was never my strong suit
But I'm doing just fine on my own

Deep down I miss the ecstasy
Evoked late nights in bed
Hands ripping the bedsheets
Legs wrapped around your head

Heavenly desire
Tasting like honey sweet
I pick and choose old memories
Then play them on repeat

Echoes of dreams begin to fade
Ambition vanished long ago
Any sign of forward movement
Is a halfhearted show

Every object pupils view
Now appears lifeless and drab
Every time I think my wounds are healing
Another reminder rips off the scab

Every score is settled now
I think you would agree
After the madness we've been through
How can I believe we are still meant to be?

The chains have held me here so long
I've become used to this place
Assumed it's where my heart belonged
But perhaps that's not the case

I whisper "Please don't let me go"
Frightened it's already done
I blinked my eyes and you disappeared
Without a word decided to run

Remember me when you lie awake
Kept up by regret for before
By the time you realize what you have
It won't be there anymore