me and the devil limping side by side
step sweeping step
lungs reeking like a gas leak
he says practice dying for when the pills peak

she sealed the relationship with a weak,suicided kiss that sketched a daydream in my head;
irises ocean blue like oven flame
roving like the dicey eyes of judas

venous anastomosis connecting the rot--
a maze that held the world in place-- settled
  then unstable then settled then unstable.
The merciful likely-overdose over the machines really being
  that vital, I am truly bleeding without an answer.
It took seconds for the world to end.
And all I could do was watch and soak in the build up  

and wish it wasn't happening yet.

I can't take your presence as a cherub any longer,
You are Lillitth hovering a loose ascetic lifestyle
that's bound to end with me numb and in a rut.
The yellow sun of my childhood that had me hoodwinked,
before made fluorescent and harshened. I don't want to face it.
It makes the pavement
                                           Shine like snow.

In the distance two shadows walk shackled
He says you wasted a lifetime stuck in sorrow and fascination
Trying to fit something into a good enough distraction
  and now there's nowhere to go.