This poem has been wanting to be written for quite some time rumbling and churning around inside and mostly burning me from the inside out A child sat across from me told me she didn’t agree with a sneer and evil intentions breaking through her windows I said let me do to your son what he did to me and see if you don’t call it abuse That child is no sister of mine Sometimes I think it’s been too long for these ghosts to be hanging around still after all these years I cowered half naked in a basement alone and afraid while a white woman stood washing dishes upstairs That woman is no mother of mine What did I do? That’s all anyone ever asks of me and then they say but black people discipline their kids like that Like what? I think, black people are brutal? Not me. A black man said, pull down your pants Her beautiful new body bared for the pleasure of vicious lechery I’m sure it was some awful deed for a 7 year old to have done The wooden planking comes down for the first time on tender exposed flesh and the next after that it’s all just fun Isn’t it? For him No cry can escape or scream She isn’t allowed even that much If you cry, you get more Take what you deserve Take it and take it and take it and take it You getting hard yet? That black man is no father of mine But, yeah, that’s just how black people discipline their kids No wonder I just laid there when the black boys told me to lay back and relax and enjoy it Doesn’t it all make sense after the fact? The people god gives you to love are the people God makes you hate by the ****** up **** they do to you If you chose to go that route Sometimes I dream of butterfly effects where she finds her voice in the strength of her hands and snatches the board from his nasty hungry hands and hits him dead in the head and runs up the stairs past the woman dressing a chicken out into the street still half naked and screaming WAKE UP - YOU FOOLS! WAKE UP! and never stops till she finds who she is