Dirt caked under my fingernails my fingers working scooping at the soil I can feel the soul of it hear the wind whispering there is nothing that could keep me from this my fingers grip at rocks and toss them over my shoulder into the pile of earth I have moved I find wriggling worms and move them too, only gentler. And once this hole- this pit I have dug is big enough to hold all of me I step inside, my bare feet touch the cool, wet dirt and then I begin to close it pull the sediment around me cover my body in it flatted it down until one arm is trapped then make a spot for the other and let it sink too. I wish the soil would liquify and I could just fall into the foreverness let my soul rest a bit under the surface even without this I close my eyes, let my eyelids relieve their burning the stars have always flashed in them and they gutter out- leaving everything darker than before I have always thought that darkness was alive I can feel it breathing moving towards me I tilt my head back, only my shoulders and up are free eyes ******* shut I know I could never hope to escape this my only chance is to make it a home become comfortable in it never let anyone take this from me in the dirt you can taste everything the Sea has been a liar since the start of eternity its calamity was never a siren song for me but I know what it's like to have a being such as her sing right in my ear I hear the Earth's melody and can't help but listen. The wind weaves through the canopy I feel my hair tickling my face an itch I can't scratch a wound I'm not allowed to pick. Even boulders bear scars even trees need a reprieve from the sunlight but only humans could ever dig their own grave and willingly rest in it.