I've developed a strange type of anger lately I've never really been an angry person I've only felt it in glimpses like when I was a teenager and my mom set unjust authority, or a few times as a younger girl, when she was drunk and didn't follow through. Now I get so angry that I've started throwing my phone and deleting apps and taking all 6 of my cheap gold rings off and throwing them 1 by 1 at all corners of the room I started ripping pages out of my planner and throwing them across the room I started ripping my phone cord out of the wall and going for runs all of a sudden and I am sprinting on the pavement pounding my feet violently against the cement and I've been collapsing at this field down the street and laying in the irritating, dry, straw grass and crying into the sunset I've been snapping at people and myself I've been hyperventilating and I keep taking my rings off and throwing them against the walls
those quarantine feels.. missing friends and family