My anxiety Is my religion I wear my nerves Around my neck Some days I wish I wasn’t So committed To this god I wish I hadn’t Spent so much time Learning the rules I want to be excommunicated Discard my racing heartbeat Peel away my bouts of depression I want to join a support group And share my cult stories Where my fears kidnapped me From my family and friends Write a book about my survival Tour the world reciting past doctrines of my anxiety But instead, I stretch myself Along my bed Arms open And sink beneath the weight Of my religion, my anxiety