I think I forgot
What I forgot, I'm not exactly sure

Maybe it's your parking space
What type of tea is your favorite
Perhaps it's the kind of car you drive
Or what size shoe you wear

But there are a few things I will never forget

Like how your eyes light up when you smile
The bells that sound when you laugh
Secret conversations in hushed tones

Distance makes my heart fonder
But what did it do for you?
You, who know of my existence
But not of the workings in my heart

My heart may be fonder, yes
But it also hurts
It hurts because I have forgotten

I'm beginning to forget the lines of your face
I no longer know your ambitions or dreams
It's all fading away and I'm not okay with it
I'm not okay with forgetting what brought me so much joy
The person that opened my heart to so many things
without even realizing it

How could you ever know what you've done for me?
How am I ever suppose to thank you?
And even if I got the chance
I don't think I could speak a word
How could I?
I'm afraid of shattering the image I have of you in my head
I need it
I need it like a daisy needs the sun and I'm so very greedy

But I think I've forgotten

The shape of your lips eludes me
And I hate it

I hate myself for forgetting