I Shut my eyes, clench my fists
And try not to cry
The numbing along with silence speaks true
Without you, whatever shall I do?
Should I go on like the dead
Or put on a smile when all I feel is dread
...
Silence, as always - you never reply
Laying on a blood-soaked bed
Why do I even try
I've said goodbye a thousand times
Yet I keep coming back only to put on a mask
Faithless, obsessed, and a complete mess
I've scared death if you couldn't guess
Replacing prayers with blood-soaked tears
A test
For my success.