It only took a few days for you to seep into my mind and reside in the darkest parts. But once I knew you were there, I didn't try to rid of you. No, you gave yourself to me and I accepted you with open arms and an empty stomach.
Like a parasite you ****** the life out of me. You wore me down to where I napped three times a day. My stomach never satisfied; either empty or stuffed. My period stopped for five months. Stomach pains worse than any pain I’ve experienced before. Living in a constant fear that my stomach acid would burn a hole through my esophagus.
But you didn’t let any of these ailments stop us. You taught me to embrace them, they needed to happen. You convinced me to enjoy the pain I inflicted to myself. Just collateral damage to the ultimate goal of thinness. You pushed me so far deep inside my head, I was separated from the shell of my body. I couldn't recognize myself, I deserved to be nobody. But I didn’t know that then, you told me that was exactly who I was supposed to be, the real me.