⚠Trigger Warning: the following poem contains religious allusions that some might find offensive⚠
Memories belittled by dust, preserved, taxidermal fashion inside an anthology of vintage photographs.
Though, I am aware that "vintage" is only a euphemism for a possession that was once beautiful.
Your treason has turned all the photographs ugly, their corners curling up like the spiral of a chameleon's tail.
Vivacious colours devolve into lacklustre, sepia tones, blending in with the palette of my surrounding melancholy.
Ensnared in a dilemma:
Do I miss you?
or
Do I hate you?
(perhaps a bit of both,
but never
I love you--
not anymore.)
Apertures mewl, bruising the gallery walls with tears.
I frame your betrayals with gold and garlands of daisies in an attempt to soften our past
(it never works).
These vacant hallways trap your phantom footprints beneath the cobblestone.
Was it really such a guiltless task to walk away from me?
Embedded across the rungs of my spine are the scuff marks from where you wiped the dirt off your boots only after wrenching the welcome mat from underneath me.
I have accepted that our friendship was merely transactional to you;
I served up all the love I had to give like John the Baptist's head was served up upon a silver platter.
You feasted
while
I starved.
Yet, full is this menagerie of lost things.
I know I should burn the polaroids in the name of closure.
Perhaps I am just afraid there will be no art-- no poetry-- left to sculpt from the cinders that remain.