I came to hate the cold When I noticed that I couldn't get a hold Of my freezing hands when they were naked and bold In an air-conditioned bus, as one of my friends told
And I would always seek out the heat Of his palms on my fingers when they meet At least they keep these delicate limbs, so petite From numbing when the chill kiss them oh so sweet
I also came to like the warmness Of people when they hug me in genuine love and kindness And I would keep seeking that kind of fondness As frost surrounds me with little to no softness
Oh, how I remember the warmth of cuddling During wet and shivery downpour in the evening Hugging and fondling under the thick, weighted bedding How comfortable, unlike sleep to the freezing
But then, maybe the coldness I feel From my hand to my feet's heel Is a reflection of the atrociousness I conceal Just to go with this ludicrous ordeal
My soul is just too bitter, just like how I hate The unfortunate temperature of my fate Yet fervor is the wish of this vicious slate Before the chessboard declares its losing checkmate
Unfortunately, things must come to an end There's no point to try to make this encounter bend Because it will all just be like play-pretend Of not acknowledging the conclusion of this descend
I came to hate the cold And when judgment day comes, with my sins uncontrolled I'd rather burn in the pits of hell in tenfold Than to freeze in Dante's 9th circle's stranglehold.
Day 15 of #NaPoWriMo 2020. I started this one I think yesterday? But I was so dazed from recent relapses that I didn't know how the flow would go. I only finished it today, with a proper-ish transition, this time. Long read, I know, but then the story unravels itself from the length. Enjoy! (And yes I have this condition where I can't maintain my body temperature as well as normal people do.)