I dreamt of a lover who held me closely
Who would look me in the eyes
Fearless of the connections our souls made
Letting me peer so deeply into them
Knowing full well no matter what I saw
I would keep them safe and adore them
With my entire existence
I believe I finally found you
When I forgot that I had been looking
Not considering you as an option
You took over my every thought
Blinding me from what was all around
All I could perceive was your essence
It was all consuming
Starting with your subtle smiles and winks
Turning into invitations that brought me
To parties I'd never be invited to
Making memories my mind struggles to hold
With the alcohol that you handed me
I'd eventually follow to the back
Being slipped a kiss that had to be kept quiet
Over time, I fell into the perfect trap
You caught me, flushed and smirking
My heart was racing, beating faster, faster, faster
You brought me to your home
Showing me a side of you not many knew
You weren't just a privileged rich kid
You were smart beyond belief
Kind and gentle, respectful and patient
Confusing what I had been told before
Letting go of all of my preconceived thoughts
You were someone brand new
Unknowing of my past, unafraid to learn
I knew your past, but there was much more
Everything changed so quickly
Wanting more, I probably did too much
Text, drunk call, Snap, drunk FaceTime
You answered them all smiling
You're beautiful on the outside
Blue eyed, tall, muscular, handsome
But also inside, listening to my every word
Absorbing it all and making an effort
Telling you all of the good and the bad
You accommodated and I did the same
Now here I am
Wanting to give you everything
My all; heart, mind, and body
I tell you daily with a kiss to follow
I love you
Knowing you love me back