Everyday I see the train
Inviting locals and foreigners
Smiles exchanged with deep talks
Feelings deepened between passengers
Where does the train go?
Where do the tracks end?
Everyday the train comes
Only to pass by me again
Fed up with my curiosity
I take one step aboard
I want my questions answered
Before I dare ask for more
I take in all the answers
By exploring every corner
As I look for somewhere vacant
I become even more unsure
My eyes locked in to another pair
As if they have found a home
Reconnecting to a piece of me
Deciphering what was unknown
I sit down across from him
He holds a familiar smile
We exchange some playful banter
So I agreed to stay awhile
I found my heart inching closer
I look down before I fall
If falling meant I could be with him
I didn't mind risking it all
Only to realize it was just me
Falling harder along the tracks
I looked at him with possibilities
Getting only half of my feelings back
I didn't know he had a stop in mind
Or maybe I was too blind to see
That loving look I adored in his eyes
Was from thinking of her and not me
His stop was coming up soon
And our time was running out
How do I persuade him to stay
Holding on to what I just found
My hesitation grew with every step
The closer he got to the door
Delaying our goodbyes just a bit
Hoping he had felt something more
The train moved on unlike me
As I stare at the empty space
Wondering of all the what ifs
What if I had asked him to wait?
I feel the train go higher
No longer depending on the tracks
I try to make up for what I saw in him
He was a reflection of what I lacked
My uncertainty about him
Made me certain of something else
Losing him did not lose me
Or take away what I had felt
So I sit on another side of the train
Causing my mind to shift
Wherever this train will take me
I am sure I'll make the most of it