Mar 2020
Erase her.
Negative energy emanates from me.
I can feel death following me.
But even she doesn't want my embrace.
So though she stalks.
She stays far away.
For she knows in truth she must stay away.
Delete her.
Please take her from inside me.
Why does the world rotate around you.
Why are you the sun in my life.
It isn't right to live in the night.
In fear of the glory of your light.
I wish I were never gifted my life.
Eradicate her.
Every trace of her must leave.
I need to purge my mind of earths purest being.
There is no joy in her perfection.
My heart bleeds when our eyes meet.
It was fate for you to allude me.
So the alluring is where I put my hate.
Efface her.
Her face is burnt into my mind.
Constantly clawing at my thoughts.
I need to get it out.
It's haunting me.
Her beauty makes it hard to sleep.
Now it's even hard to breathe.
**** her.
She doesn't need to be.
And neither do I.
So let death take her sweetly.
Let it hold her tightly and lovingly.
While it hushes her to sleep.
This is now my only dream.
Negative energy emanates from me.
I can feel death following me.
But even she doesn't want my embrace.
So though she stalks.
She stays far away.
For she knows in truth she must stay away.
Delete her.
Please take her from inside me.
Why does the world rotate around you.
Why are you the sun in my life.
It isn't right to live in the night.
In fear of the glory of your light.
I wish I were never gifted my life.
Eradicate her.
Every trace of her must leave.
I need to purge my mind of earths purest being.
There is no joy in her perfection.
My heart bleeds when our eyes meet.
It was fate for you to allude me.
So the alluring is where I put my hate.
Efface her.
Her face is burnt into my mind.
Constantly clawing at my thoughts.
I need to get it out.
It's haunting me.
Her beauty makes it hard to sleep.
Now it's even hard to breathe.
**** her.
She doesn't need to be.
And neither do I.
So let death take her sweetly.
Let it hold her tightly and lovingly.
While it hushes her to sleep.
This is now my only dream.
I need to love myself before I ever love another. But I often find myself trying instead to lose my self hatred in the non-existent love of another. I do this then slowly hate myself more then before. This poem chronicles the hatred I feel to myself and to my crush by showing how much I want to forget my crushes existence. This however only hurts me. In other words read my poetry as warning to live in your own life and try your best not live in false realities you create every time you meet an amazing person. That person doesn't owe you their love.
Peace and love to anyone who ever looks at you. I love you with every piece of my broken heart. I hope this helps understand that you are not alone in lonelyness but rather we are together in it. If you would like to talk about any ill emotions please reach out to me. I could use someone to talk to and you might to. Let us be trully together in lonelyness.
Peace and love to anyone who ever looks at you. I love you with every piece of my broken heart. I hope this helps understand that you are not alone in lonelyness but rather we are together in it. If you would like to talk about any ill emotions please reach out to me. I could use someone to talk to and you might to. Let us be trully together in lonelyness.
