Why do I live with my sorrow and pain.... Why do I cry when time slows down.... Why do I cut when I am low in self esteem.... Why do I see death around every corner.... Why do I watch elders wither away and wish I could too.... Why do I panic when I am alone.... Why do I stare at the moon while it looks at me.... Why do I stop before I jump.... Why do I do anything if it going to end up a mistake.... Why do I have to be me.... Why.... Just why....