I'm going to tell you something that you already know to be true, but I'm going to say it anyways--
If either of my wives had half the ability to believe that you do, you and I would have never met, because I would still be happily married and my heart's energy would be going towards her, rather than here. Let your mind, and that gorgeous body of yours believe and think right now whatever you need to in order to take sips of air in all of this difficulty,
but I know and see things much differently because I am not under the stress that you are.
Call me eccentric, old.. and whatever you need to so that you can keep from getting ****** under in all of this mess that you are feeling, but I will never stop seeing the things that are there for you..
and are yours to take hold of-- within the parameters of your own giftedness.
I'm sorry.. but I was trained as a mercenary, not as a cook xo