I'm forever chained to my own self which feels like a dark cave
My heart feels so strained As well as my brain
My clarity has been drained
Will I ever stop choking on my thoughts
I wanna blow my ******* brains and get out before I turn into level infinity insane
I can barely walk without my tummy turning into knots  
My stomach is full with my thoughts
My heart is beating but I can’t hear it over my internal screaming
Losing sleep thinking about if my life has meaning
I don’t wanna go back to reality *** my reality is not pleasing it’s just a lot of ******* and people talking with such lack of meaning
Like shut up I am screaming
I know you can’t hear the demons
But look past my eyes and and see me dreaming
Dreaming of such a happy little sober life
I know if I blink twice it will happen right?
Or will the fight just cause me to lose my battle tonight?
My heart feels so strained as well as my brain
My clarity has been drained
Wanna dip out my brain and stop this ******* pain I can’t deal anymore Heart feels so sore
Body feels so sick
Please ******* you evil little ***** tryna target at my mind all of you stole my shine
I used to feel so bright  
I used to love to write
But my energy has been turned off like a light
barley sleep at night
But when I close my eyes I see loud sounds pounding in my foggy sight
Never dreamed of wanting to die but tonight it got too much and my feelings welled up inside causing me to pick up the pad and write
I don’t know what will happen to me
But i guess we’ll see I’ll just keep writing poetry